Spend Some Time

How do you feel like when something deep down hurts and the cause is your mother? You love her very much when you need her or support from her but don't realize your soul really needs her, loves her, respects her? What do you do when you loose the connection between your soul and mind? Can you be proud you're a good son as I am doing? yeah I've been proud of myself of my god-damned successes that worth nothing here in my life. I grasped all because of my only mother! I called her to tell everything that's been hurting me about her, but she was busy I lost my chance. It stroke me I started getting moody and well-nigh cried. I have a death wish I've never had a conversation with her from my heart.